“I would love you forever, if I only had the chance…”
Kacey Dawson has always lived life on the edge–impulsively, sometimes recklessly. And now, as lead guitarist for a hot up-and-coming band, she is poised at the brink of fame and fortune. But she is torn between wanting to be a serious musician, and the demons that lure her down the glittering, but alcohol-soaked path of rock stardom. A wrecked concert in Las Vegas threatens to ruin her career entirely. She wakes up with the hangover from hell and no memory of the night before, or how she ended up on her limo driver’s couch…
Jonah Fletcher is running out of time. He knows his situation is hopeless, and he’s vowed to make the most of the handful of months he has left to him. His plans include seeing the opening of his glass installation at a prestigious art gallery…they do not include falling in love with a wild, tempestuous rock musician who wound up passed out on his couch.
Jonah sees that Kacey is on a path to self-destruction. He lets her crash with him for a few days to dry out and get her head on straight. But neither of them expected the deep connection they felt, or how that connection could grow so fast from friendship into something more. Something deep and pure and life-changing…something as fragile as glass, that they both know will shatter in the end no matter how hard they try to hold on to it.
Full Tilt is a story about what it means to love with your whole heart, to sacrifice, to experience terrible grief and soaring joy. To live life with all its beauty, and all its pain, and in the end to be able to smile through tears and know you wouldn’t have changed a thing.
Full Tilt is the story of Kacey and Jonah, Kacey is in a band just about to hit the big time, but she is a serious party girl and drinks herself into oblivion every night and sleeps with a different man every night. Jonah is a heart transplant patient who has no other choice but to live the cleanest and healthiest life possible because he doesn’t have long left to live, his body is rejecting his new heart and nothing the doctors can do is going to save him.
Of a night-time Jonah is a limo driver and his current job is to drive Kacey’s band, Rapid Confession, to and from their hotel to the venue of their gig. As he waits for the band to finish up inside, Kacey is currently off her face drunk and has invited half the audience to join the band in the backroom for a party. The party becomes insane, bodies everywhere, things being broken and smashed and Kacey is oblivious to it all. The bands bodyguard comes to her rescue and gets her out of the place and gently places her in Jonah’s limo, with strict instructions he is to leave the rest of the band and get Kacey back safely. When he gets her home its pitch black inside and he doesn’t quite relish the idea of her being left alone so drunk, so he takes her back to his apartment and places her on the sofa with a blanket, a glass of water and some aspirin for when she wakes up.
And this is where both their lives are about to change…
Jonah lives life by a VERY strict routine, he NEVER strays from his routine, by day he makes glass for a very special exhibit and by night he drives limos. He has his parents, his younger and very over protective brother and an extremely limited amount of friends, he doesn’t have time for anyone new in his life and he is very happy with that. He eats a VERY strict diet and every night he gets home he answers texts from his brother to let him know he is home for the night.
As for Kacey she is a broken girl who is desperate to be loved, her father kicked her out at seventeen as her mum stood by and allowed it to happen. Kacey continuously rings home to try to prove to her parents that she is a success and that she is worthy of their love, but her mum intercepts all phone calls and isn’t keen on telling Kacey’s dad anything about her. It’s because of this that Kacey’s behavior is out of control, she sleeps with different men every night in order to be held and loved, even if it’s only for the night!
Kacey has a type and Jonah is not it in any way, she wakes fearing that he was another one night stand but he quickly puts that right. That’s the thing about Kacey, she isn’t actually proud of the way she is, the out of control drinking, the sleeping around, it’s all about filling a void and deep down she regrets all of it. But it’s hard to stop doing something when what you really want is so out of your grasp!
There is an instant attraction between the two of them, even though Jonah doesn’t want to have any interest in her, especially not after how he was treated by his ex and Kacey thinks he is way too clean-cut for her. Kacey is unhappy with band life for so many reasons, one of the big reasons being that she feels pushed aside, she writes the songs but isn’t the lead singer and she only really likes her best friend in the band, who puts up with all the crap that Kacey does. Jonah comes to Kacey’s rescue by allowing her to crash at his home when she has a few free days from the band. their relationship starts as friends but it’s completely obvious they both have the hots for each other, and after only a few hours in each others company they take on a real caring role for one another. Jonah confesses his secrets about where he is at in his life, something that shocks his very tight-knit circle, because he doesn’t tell anyone anything and Kacey confesses to Jonah about how unhappy she is and how she would like to quit the band if she could. Kacey and Jonah’s relationship is NOT approved by Jonah’s younger brother, Theo, he knows what happened with Jonah’s ex girlfriend and so he is very overprotective and wary of anyone else coming in and messing with Jonah in any way.
Jonah has things he has to do and he can’t be side tracked and Kacey has commitments to the band, going separate ways is imminent but how will the future play out?
OH GOD! This is so hard for me, so hard, that I read this book weeks ago, started reviewing it then had to stop and think about it before I could come back and review it. It’s so hard because I really liked this book, I wanted to love it and be broken and ugly cry but it didn’t quite happen. For me the story is right there but it felt a little rushed and that stopped me from falling hard, but it doesn’t mean I disliked it as a whole because I liked the story, I loved the idea of the book, it just didn’t quite grab me like it could have if it was a little longer. I think it just needed to be slowed down.
I loved how over protective Theo was, I understood it but god I wished that Jonah would stand up for himself more, all because of what was happening to him he allowed the behavior and he shouldn’t have! my absolute most favourite part in the entire book was when they went camping with Jonah’s friends, it was perfect and it was so full of tenderness and love and that was perfect. I liked how she was the broken mess and he wasn’t also, that is always refreshing to read, although I do wish that Kacey maybe hid her good side from Jonah for a little longer, although I did enjoy how they could be so honest with each other also.
Full Tilt was an enjoyable read but sadly did’t quite hit the spot for me, with this kind of story line I wanted to be a broken mess at the end and it didn’t quite hit the spot.